China, Final Images (A Million Hands)

Now for a bit I’m going to put away the camera.

A girl is walking past with striped yellow and green socks, up to her knees, short purple shorts, and a pink sweater over a white hooded shirt. She has a brown sac over her shoulder and her hair in pigtails with a pink clip thing shaped like a flower. Now a man slightly balding with hair combed back, in grey trousers and a blue shirt, flipping his hands as he walks. Now a Blue Mercedes Benz drives by smelling like diesel. I hear the door shut after it goes around the corner. A man is playing a wooden flute instrument, and I hear the notes and know they are the same notes of music everywhere, the tones are the same but he plays a Chinese sounding song which is very nice. Earlier a girl in a yellow shirt squatted down to photograph a pigeon. Before that a man was teaching a young boy to skateboard. A little girl runs up to her father, who is kneeling down and taking her picture, and she looks at the back of the camera.

A man with white hair carries a briefcase and looks at the ground as he walks. Someone sneezes.
Wind blows through the trees, the leaves look wet with sunlight. The sky is pure blue, the air is warm and breezy. The airport from wherever we flew was the first place I saw the blue sky in a week. The flute player has stopped playing. I haven’t checked my email since Luoyang, a week ago I think. I hear water pouring into the ground from a hose. Two girls walk with umbrella one blue one light blue. This kind of writing achieves the same purpose as photography, but takes much longer to produce. This is my only day in Beijing. I’m sure there is much to see but I’m happy to just sit on a bench.

I hear someone hock a spit. Someone walking behind me whistling. The photograph doesn’t capture sound. People don’t know you’re writing about them, taking their photo is much more obvious. Couples are very affectionate, laying on top of each other on benches. The flute plays.
Two young guys walk past, one carrying a shiny silver shopping bag, the other a bottle of water. One looked at my face. I can see someone wiping the tail of the Mercedes behind the corner of the Bell tower. An old man jogs past wearing a Puma shirt and Adidas shorts. I have seen zero poverty in Beijing. It was probably all expelled for the Olympics. A hump of pink and white stripes, containing a person, lays on the bench next door with a young guy, or maybe girl. Earlier two women walked by with three small kids. Two of them fell down, looked at each other, giggled, got back up, walked a few steps, fell down again, got back up, giggled.

A guy and girl walk by very close, the guy talking Chinese, illustrating his words by pointing into space. In the van on the way back from the wall yesterday, I could hear the driver and tour guide talking in Chinese, and I think they were debating whether Audis were too expensive or not.

The great wall was incredible. Half of it was in total disrepair, the steps degraded into crumbling rocks, making a perilous and exhausting walk. Local farmers attach themselves to tourists, peddling English words, asking for money, selling little gifts. It seemed too impossible to be manmade, but the guide said the materials were local, bricks weren’t carried far, in different parts of China, it is made of different bricks, or whatever material was available. We passed through 31 towers and crossed 10 km.

The tree I’m sitting under is a “Pinus tabulaeformis Carr.”

Looking at the map of Beijing I can’t see anything which gives me a “must-visit” feeling. What are the qualities that make a place a “destination” for visitors? Right now I just feel like sitting down. I imagine Beijing is like Washington, very intriguing for those who live here, mysterious, pretty, but kind of boring for those who don’t.

I saw a white guy who looked like my cousin. A couple walked by. A woman is pacing with a toddler in her arms, a jogger goes past with a mullet haircut and a mustache. Most Chinese lack mustaches, goatees, beards, sideburns. A woman walks by with a facial expression I can’t place. A man holds his arms behind his back, walks slowly, looking up at trees, holds a white plastic bag.
The girl who had falling children before walks by, now alone. A girl in a blue pants suit rides by on a rusty bicycle with a carriage attached to the back. Three girls walk close together, the middle one has a yellow shirt and black umbrella. I feel like a CCTV video camera as I do this exercise.

A little boy walking with his parents stops, stands at attention, salutes his mom, she salutes back.

A man with a peculiar walk goes by: he has the form of someone striding quickly, with swinging arms and long steps, but moves very, very slow. An old man in a red hat is pushed in a wheelchair, with a blanket in his lap.

I think people value the predictability in the city, in any city. Seeing a confused person wandering around without a destination disturbs them because it lacks precious predictability. Spending money in the city always feels expensive, because the exchange is so fast, and it took longer to get the money than spend it.

A man in a cowboy hat and vest walks by, looking like he should be holding a camera, but he isn’t. The pink and white striped lump on the bench walks by, she is a tall girl with long hair in a ponytail. The mullet jogger goes by, he also has very long sideburns.

Far away I see someone wearing a bright green jacket.

Petals on a wet black bough.
Petals on a wet black Sabia Vulgaris Ant.
Petals on a wet black Catalpabungei C.A. May

Stones in a great wall. Urinal cakes in a bathroom. Towels on the cart of housekeeping in a hotel. Empty seats on an airplane, butterflies in the blue sky, letters on a page.

A million hands scratching a million asses. A million couples holding hands. A million camels pissing in the desert. A million roses in bloom, a million beats on a drum, a million cars on a road, a million old men and women sticking their heads in trash cans looking for empty bottles.
A million brains splattered on the road, a million grieving husbands, a million children in strollers passing through parks, a million raindrops washing a million cars of a million shits from a million birds, a million words on a million tongues, a million boys having a million fun, a million Yuan for a million bus rides, a million bones of a million brides, a million Australians sitting in the sun, a million Chinese yawning, farting, spitting, dreaming, on benches, on tables, at kiosks, dreaming a million fantasies, destinies, dreaming a billion nightmares, ecstasies, a billion Chinese jogging, planting a thousand double gardens of a million happiness.
A million Americans, a million poems, a million silly Chinese, a billion worlds, planets, stars, doors.
Petals on a wet black Euonymous japonicus thunb.
A million losses, a million bribes, a million husbands betrayed by wives, a million security checks before plane rides, a billion smiles cracking a billion faces, Chinese etiquette lacking in a million places, American idiot, American Dream, a million people who don’t want what they need, a billion of God, a billion of Buddha, an overnight train for the sons of Judah.
A million high heels on a million motorcycles, a million hard-ons, a man walking backwards, only one Spain, only one Barcelona, only one city in the world with a million bullfights, Pamplona. A million nights on a million oceans, a million televisions, a million stations, a million homes broken, Ten billion stories, one million names, King James, King Henry, Emperor Who?, and one Spain, a million photos of a million babies, A million Chinese, a million ladies, A million stripes on a million shirts, a million pants, a million skirts, flirts, sports, drums, balls.
A million friends, a million dead-ends, Buckingham London Downing number 10, Beijing, a million, Nanjing, a million, Fifty one million, eleven one million.
A million lords of a million rings an infinite possibility of infinite things, an infinite kisses on an infinite noses, an infinite characters and an infinite poses, a million, a billion, infinity, insanity, one man, standing, shouting for all the rest, one city, every place, the planet at rest.
And China, and London, and America, and women and men, and nine thousand years of destiny, and nine doors with eighty one buttons, and pighouse, and one million books read by nobody, written by one million versions, infinite versions, of hands scratching asses.
Petals on a wet black
Prunus triloba Lindl 


  1. Nobody commented here? This one is easily one of the top five blog posts I have ever read; I have read it on repeat close to fifteen times just now.

    The writing itself in tandem with the images it delivers….
    The candid language combined with the Ezra Pound reference cycling throughout…

    I want to pick your brain.

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